1. I Hate Everything About You
    • Three Days Grace
  2. Shake It Out
    • Florence + The Machine
  3. Good Life
    • OneRepublic
  4. Weak
    • AJR
  5. I’m Ready
    • AJR
    • This song arrived on my playlist before my first chemo because I knew it could be a song to help me find my groove before chemo infusions.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f2dJxFIV28Y

 

First Chemo (1/25/18)

  1. Blinded By Your Grace, Pt. 2
    • Stormzy (feat. MNEK)
  2. White Blood
    • Oh Wonder
    • I did not know this song was connected to cancer until looking for the lyrics, just now, for this post. Throughout chemo I appreciated this song for the melody and the irony of the message and how it pertains to my specific cancer and treatment. The purpose of my chemotherapy was to kill my immune system, including my white blood cells, to resolve the cancer within the system. Goes to show the reaching impacts of cancer.

Said you’d always be my white blood
Circulate the right love
Giving me your white blood
I need you right here with me
Said you’d always be my white blood
Elevate my soul above
Giving me your white blood
I need you right here with me
Here with me

  • Quote from the official website of Oh Wonder: “We wrote ‘White Blood’ to explore the idea of needing immunity from disease, sadness, hopelessness or fear, not only in the physical form of white blood cells, but also with simple human love and support. This song is for you, Steven and Wendi, and for anyone else out there that is dealing with difficult physical or mental health circumstances. We are all here for each other.”
  1. Praying
    • Kesha
  2. Brightside
    • The Killers
  3. Restless Sea
    • Louis Futon
  4. Coroner
    • Lando Chill
  5. Go Fuck Yourself
    • Two Feet
  6. Rainbow
    • Kesha
  7. Cancer
    • My Chemical Romance
  8. I Say So
    • Chloe x Halle
  9. God’s Plan
    • Drake
    • I needed pick-me-up songs and this one is at the top of my list. I suggest watching the music video below to celebrate giving. And I know my life is not according to my plan, rather by Gods.

  1. Goner
    • Twenty One Pilots
  2. This Is Gospel
    • Panic! At the Disco

 

Second Chemo (2/8/18)

  1. Harder Better Faster Stronger
    • Daft Punk
  2. Girls Have Super Powers
    • Tim Hanauer
    • My English Teacher from Sophomore year was an incredible singer-songwriter who would occasionally play for us. I enjoyed his class and was glad to come across his music again. This song specifically was empowering for me as a female.
  3. Creature Fear
    • Bon Iver
    • Bon Iver’s soothing voice comforted me during my fair share of infusions.
  4. This Year
    • The Mountain Goats
  5. Ain’t No Sunshine
    • Freddie King
  6. Ready to Start
    • Arcade Fire
  7. Float On
    • Modest Mouse
    • The first verse of this song was my senior quote, proving its timelessness in my life. I love the message of this song. Sometimes life is not ok and rather than pretending that it is, I appreciate the message of accepting the poor situation for what it is and its impact but “floating on.”

I backed my car into a cop car the other day
Well, he just drove off – sometimes life’s okay
I ran my mouth off a bit too much, ah what did I say?
Well, you just laughed it off and it was all okay

  1. Walk on Water
    • Thirty Seconds to Mars
  2. These Days
    • Dan Caplen (feat. Jess Glynne and Macklemore)
  3. IDGAF
    • Dua Lipa
  4. Pray For Me
    • The Weeknd with Kendrick Lamar
  5. I’m A Cuckoo
    • Bell & Sebastian
  6. Beautiful Day
    • U2
  7. FEAR.
    • Kendrick Lamar
  8. Dear Prudence – Remastered
    • The Beatles
    • Thanks to Across the Universe’s filming of this song, I imagine floating amongst the skies of sunny day in the clouds supported by my loved ones.
    • https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zmfX8s3_ezM
  9. Little Boy
    • Vance Joy
  10. Release Your Problems
    • Chet Faker

 

Third Chemo (2/22/18)

  1. Lights Of Home
    • U2
  2. Be OK
    • Ingrid Michaelson
  3. Let It Be – From “Across The Universe”
    • Carol Woods and Timothy T. Mitchum
  4. Best of You
    • Foo Fighters
  5. I Want To Be Well
    • Sufjan Stevens
  6. Who Lives, Who Dies, Who Tells Your Story
    • Original Broadway Cast of Hamilton

 

Fourth Chemo (3/8/18)

Fifth Chemo (3/22/18)

  1. Just Breathe
    • Pearl Jam
  2. I Believe – As featured in the Walt Disney Pictures “A WRINKLE IN TIME”
    • DJ Khaled (ft. Demi Lovato)
  3. Rose’s Turn
    • Bernadette Peters
  4. Once In A Lifetime – Live
    • Talking Heads
  5. I’ll Stand By You
    • Pretenders and Bob Clearmountain

 

Sixth Chemo (4/5/18)

  1. White Flag
    • Bishop Briggs
  2. The Have Nots
    • Danielle Ate The Sandwich

Seventh Chemo (4/19/18)

Eighth Chemo (5/3/18)

  1. Send Me On My Way
    • Rusted Root
  2. Big Yellow Taxi
    • Joni Mitchell
  3. Three Little Birds
    • Bob Marley & The Wailers

 

Ninth Chemo (5/17/18)

  1. Lift Yourself
    • Kayne West
    • Yes, this is a real song. Yes, the song is ridiculous. And yes, I enjoy dancing along. But, the reason why this song is on my playlist is because it was the song I would dance to, to celebrate going number two. Chemo messes with the digestion system in many ways- it is common for constipation to become an issue. Meaning for me, going was worth a celebration.
  2. Rivers and Roads
    • The Head and the Heart
  3. Pre-Occupied
    • Jon Bellion and Blaque Keyz
  4. High Hopes
    • Panic! At The Disco
  5. Pinocchio Story (Freestyle Live From Singapore)
    • Kayne West

 

Tenth Chemo (5/31/18)

  1. Battle Scars
    • Lupe Fiasco, Guy Sebastian
  2. Take a Walk
    • Passion Pit
  3. Wake Up
    • Arcade Fire
  4. Suit and Jacket
    • Judah & the Lion

Eleventh Chemo (6/14/18)

  1. Vogue
    • Madonna
  2. I Will Survive
    • Gloria Gaynor
  3. Blackbird/ Yesterday – Love Version
    • The Beatles
  4. Hold Your Head Up
    • Macklemore
  5. Ain’t Gonna Die Tonight
    • Macklemore (feat. Eric Nally)
  6. Heartless
    • Kayne West
  7. The Funeral
    • Band of Horses
  8. Kevin
    • Macklemore and Ryan Lewis (feat. Leon Bridges)
  9. Young Blood
    • Noah Kahan
  10. 715 – CR∑∑KS
    • Bon Iver
  11. A Hard Rain’s A-Gonna Fall
    • Bob Dylan
  12. Sail
    • AWOLNATION
  13. Woman
    • Kesha and The Dap-Kings Horns
  14. Tiny Cities
    • Flume (feat. Beck)
  15. Changing
    • The Airborne Toxic Event
  16. Need to Know
    • Macklemore & Ryan Lewis (feat. Chance the Rapper)
  17. 1-800-273-8255
    • Logic, Alessia Cara, Khalid
  18. If I Were a Boy
    • Beyoncé
  19. So What
    • P!nk
  20. The Scientist
    • Coldplay
  21. I Write Sins Not Tragedies
    • Panic! At The Disco
  22. This Woman’s Work
    • Kate Bush
  23. Us V Them – London Session
    • LCD Soundsystem

 

Two-Weeks after Last Chemo (7/28/18)

  1. Emotionless
    • Drake
  2. Sunshine
    • POWERS
  3. Alive
    • Pearl Jam
  4. Ultralight Beam
    • Kayne West
  5. You’re Gonna Go Far, Kid
    • The Offspring
  6. Psycho
    • Post Malone (feat. Ty Dolla $ign)
  7. Death with Dignity
    • Sufjan Stevens
  8. Might As Well Dance
    • Jason Marz
    • An appropriate ending!
    • Soon this song will be over
      We’ll have to say goodnight
      Don’t you want some closure
      Before we turn out the light?
      Honey, think of your heart
      Yeah, the heart’s too heavy to slow
      Partly ’cause it’s running the show
      Partly ’cause the beat is connected to the feeling

Port-Removal Surgery (7/13/18)